Posts tagged ‘faith’
I’ve been keeping a secret for almost 2 months now.
It eats away at me little by little every day…
I see the beauty of life fading
I find myself questioning how kind God really is when he causes such suffering
And I cry all of the time. Like, ridiculously all of the time.
It was only about 2 weeks ago I found out what I really had – a virus.
It’s called Molluscum Contagiosum (Web MD description)
This is a pox virus that presents itself on the skin like pimples. THEY ARE NOT PIMPLES! and the more you treat them as if they were, the more likely you are to just keep spreading it and reinfecting yourself.
This is a great website I found that anyone going through this needs to read (click here)
I just want to say to all of you who have gone through this, are going through this, or who knows someone going through this, it’s a daily struggle just to find strength to get out of bed, but if you don’t fight back for yourself, who will?
It’s most difficult to deal with when we are with the people we love the most, because this is where the true emotions can’t stay bottled in. And we alienate ourselves not because we don’t want or need your support, but because we care about you so much and don’t want to pass this awful virus on and cause more unnecessary suffering.
So I try to find something to be positive about every day – as my Grandma puts it, she asks God to send her a miracle every day. I’m not asking for a miracle, just something to give me a tiny dose of hope so I can keep trudging through life without tears in my eyes. So far, God continues to grant my wish and sends me small bits of hope when I ask for it…under the condition that I be quiet and patient enough to see his gifts and fully appreciate them. Now, I am grateful for every moment of peace I can find.
And if there must be tears, may they be those of laughter.
Now, let’s look at funny things and laugh…
Ok so, not really that long but it feels like it…
I was given a really awesome super special gift this weekend
It’s a collaboration piece made by Nathan Bray and Cody Bartz.
I need to do a little more research,I’m not exactly sure who did what..
Here’s where they both signed the bottom, so I’ll have proof it’s authentic when they both get really famous.
You can see the awesome flashing effects the soda kiln left on the clay body –
I love the soda kiln!
And I managed to get this amazing gift because I am just that cool…
..also because one of the handles cracked.
But it looks really fitting with the crazy faceting through-out the whole piece.
I’m excited because I have a great use for it.
Last summer I bought this house plant from home depot – I’m not sure what kind of plant it is
anyway, the thing was thriving all summer and fall, but as soon as winter came and it was getting no sun the poor thing just started to die a little more every day. More and more leaves kept falling off of it.
I think I gave it too much water, and it was in a vase that didn’t have holes in the bottom.
By December there was just one stalk left, with 2 leaves. When those last 2 leaves fell off, I finally set-up a heat lamp for it.
But I came home one day and one of my cats had bitten in to the stalk, and it was almost completely snapped in half, except for a thin strand of fibers that were still hanging on.
I grabbed a pencil and some tape and bandaged the near dead plant back together.
Since then I’ve been saying hello the plant every day and give it encouragement to keep growing. I know it sounds like crazy-lady stuff but here’s proof that talking to your plants actually works!
Slowly but surely more and more leaves have sprouted out, and new blossom formations are getting ready to sprout open.
I carefully transplanted it from this green vase and put it in a big plastic cup with holes on the bottom.
I also gave it sugar water to jump start growth (hopefully)
the plan is to let it get stronger in it’s new, nutrient-rich soil, transplant it once more into a larger rectangular pot, then put that inside my awesome Bray/Bartz pot.
The whole thing will be a symbol of what can be accomplished when you have a little faith in something.